Single mom life

I wanted to take a moment to  have straight talk with you if you are following or just reading my post.
  I'm not going to sugar code it in anyway but give you the hard bloody truth. Okay here I GO!!#

  Being a single parent is tough as everyone goes through it in so many ways that we never see another person's prospective on it.
  I gotten a chance to do so unexpectedly.  I meet up with a mom who my daughter is doing a talent show with.
 Already in me head I'm thinking this lady is married, don't have to work or have less hours because remember she has a husband and living in this hug house and not worry about grandparents. Oh men how I was SOOOOO WRONG!!!
  I forgot I meet the stepmother. Taking a moment to talk about who we were I was for sure he had at least a husband or a boyfriend. No wrong again.
  She is a single mom that lives with her parents.. working a job she doesn't like that much and she tried to go back to school for doing hair but I don't think that worked out for her. Her husband left her after many of years being with each other. Having 2 girls and it's just her...custody battle and did I mention counseling wish they could have done and they were married but shit happens. The lady he is with well yeah that's the one that broke there marriage and her daughters love there step mom and I'm sure she needs to get pregnant so she can have her own.

  Anyways I thought I was going through shit but damm that saying goes when
  " You think you have it ruff someone else has it worse"  or " Once everyone problems are thrown in a pile and you get to choice which one you want, you are going to take yours back because yours not as bad"


  Shit happens. Being a mom of four with no father around Having to keep him updated(being nice) Trying to figure out when  going back to school or if I'm ever. Debating if I should start my own business to wonder where my life is headed.

 My view on the single life is a little different but most importantly everyone has a story when they are going through this.




Motherhood

Exhausted need wine

what a long exhausting day. I was full on doing mommy dutie. I spent time with baby Z as I went to leave and do recess duty and meet up with a mom without baby z..she was with grandma to me pick up the kids.
  Of couse they have paragon night where they sing and dance what they learn in class about a culture. Oh men can my baby dance!!! to my Amiah loud and clear saying her part. As that lasted for 2 hours I was greatful my mom cooked dinner to helping with Homework to just waiting to finally rest. washing kids clothes I know I have another busy day ahead. out and about with baby as I get things done. so greatful I do not have work tomorrow or the next.
Time for wine: )


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some must have for those 3months.

After a couple of years having a baby and things change after the first one or even the second  one but you realize times has change. You wonder when has this carrier been all my life!!!! It would have been a great help then the first one I had for my second kid.
  Then the high chair you must have. I wonder why I never got one with all three of my kids but the ones you place in a chair or they have one that sits on the table as you are right there??? anyways it sucked and I ly lasted a couple of months. But this is super great and u can really move around!!
 Of course the baby pillow to lotion..Avueno  ( hoped I spell that right) to baby soap...For all babies..got it from whole foods but For all kids something like it but says KIDS in big letter and BABY in big letter.  To only realizing g not matter how bad you want to try a different type of diapers you baby is a seven generation baby when it comes to daipers. All of them are so it's a must for me.
Most importantly get what you think is important for your baby. Some babies like the baby pillow and some don't. My baby Z is not a fan of it but it helped when she was small. Now she use it now and then. She is on the move and ready to climb mountains ( it's a metaphor don't take it serious )

  so yes get the little pack that has the brush...nose thing...toothbrush and all to a bathtub no need to wait and lots and lots of diapers and whips with clothes since your baby will poop out a couple of times.

 That's all the things I could think about on the top if my head as I'm tired and now ready to go to bed. Goodnight and don't stress. the first 3 months of motherhood is ruff but you will get use to it. : )
 

8 month year old ahhh...kids.

When your baby turns 8month and you never see this coming. Crawling around to trying to stand up all you can think about is I need to baby proof a little more...oh yeah a gate as well for the stairs. Besides that her tooth is coming in. Yes that's right....you baby first tooth can. It's very exciting but no to exciting if you breastfeeding!!!!but you take the pain and keep on going at it.
  I'm enjoying every moment of it and life is great even though my place might get messy and I have to clean up more often : )

  Besides that you baby will eat solid foods which mines rather eat what I eat I gave her some sweet potatoes and she ate them. She loves the puffs and finally gets in the swing. She us ally goes over there and let know she is ready to get in and out. Still great to have.

  New baby clothes and growing some days I barely can keep up with all my mommy duties. Can't wait for May to get here. School is out and I can sleep in a little and start planting with the kids : )


Motherhood....love life

Smile...it's Motherhood

Oh Motherhood Oh Motherhood

   I woke up to be like " Dang I gotta get up"
    How many years do I have until I can run around naked? U know some of ypu guys do but I don't. I will say at least 43 and I can probably visit the Bahamas without any children and work as many hours as I want to where I don't have to worry about when I need to come back home (Maybe in a couple of years when I'm like 38) and of course just sleep in until noon!!!!

  No more babies as I wait to be a auntie(secretly I can't wait!!#)

 It's another beautiful day as the snow left I will be doing the last feast of unleaven. can't wait but I wish I could have celebrated with more family.

  Time to go do mo my duties : )




Motherhood!!!

Unleaven feast/my thoughts

watching the snow fall from my kitchen window as I sip on coffee looking at my planner today I realize life is so sweet that everyday I get up I need to thank the most high.
  Yesterday at the dinner table my baby boy  (second to the youngest) prayed over the food. He thank Yah for the world. My oldest said "Why would you thank him for the world? it's so bad/evil."
  My mother and me had to tell my oldest son that he is thanking Yah for the world because he created and if he never did then we wouldn't be here. Also it's not the world that's evil but men.
  He understood it after that. during the unleaven Feast as I'm still new to this walk. Been 2 years and still in training im trying to remember to not have a sour heart, a hate heart why you  despise someone so sad that you don't want to be around them and  not hold onto grudges because lfe is to short.
  I have learn more about myself in the past couple of days. I see that I can not eat bread that I have will power. I saw myself try different foods that I would have never thought about eating. I even loved the time I have with my children and my mom as we try to think of things together to make. My dad is actually doing it with us as this year he didn't bye any BREAD and eat it. Super excited about that. The Lord still working on him.

   I know I have 3 more days of the feast as Saturday is going to be the big one. It's a lot to take in and hopefully I can lead the last prayer or find a bible verse that fits.


  I'm going to enjoy this time I have as Baby Z is sleep and I can drop down somethings I want to change and accomplish this year.

  : )





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Another sleepless night?

I want to cry as I know the next day will kick me in my butt as it is almost 11pm (10min) and I will not be going to sleep nor get ready for bed but waiting for my 8month year old to fall asleep.

  I really don't wan to just place in her crib and hope she falls asleep. I want to make sure she is sleeping so I wait until she starts rubbing her eyes and yawn and you know she is almost there and then she falls asleep.

    Trying to juggle everything today was very exhausting to where all I want to do is fall sleep.  I have to get up in the morning and make lunch for the kids but literally cook...making meatballs and something else I just don't know yet but we are still doing the unleavened bread feast.

  need to pump milk which I will try to store for Sunday as I will be going to work.

  Right a email to my son's teacher about a grade to waiting patiently if my daughter and her friend got the spot in the talent show as I will probably have to buy a outfit for the performance.

   Dropping off kids as my dad usually help except Thursday as he has overtime (wish I could pick up some)

  Of course me as I try to remember the important things I need to get before the kids get out of school and wanting to go clothes shopping with out baby seems like it won't be happening so I should just place that money to the side. I don't have the strength to go tomorrow but maybe Friday : )

      I was super excited today!! I got to take a bubble bath with lout baby getting up crying for milk (Pumping gets tiring) Not having to rush but take my time: )

 Even though I want to cry because it's a never ending story, I have to pick up tears....yes I said pick them up...might need them later..hahaha

  Hopefully I get things right tomorrow which is in a hour : 0

 




Ahhh Motherhood