Why get married to someone that will cheat on you, lie to you behind your back and you just take the shit.
A person says because you love them. But why sacrifice so much and that person can not do the same?
I am debating about love. What is the true meaning of love? I dig real deep inside me and I smile as I can somewhat see it, feel it and desire it but it only comes to some of us as it is rare.
I'm not talking about "Oh he cheated just one time, it's okay" or " I love her but I want to have a little fun"..."I rather spend money on myself then her".... "I don't want to work, I will let her do all the money making"
All of that and more is not love. True love is actually someone there to the end. It's rare in this world. People grow apart. People realize who they are and they even want more. Desire more and of course the kids can bring you together or break you.
Just everything together is just crazy. So I wonder if I will find the love of my life. I wonder if I am willing to wait or be patient.
These day in age I wonder if I even want to look. So Instead I am making myself a list of things I want in a men. I will probably Vlogs about it or just keep it between us. So far, I am willing to just see what happens.
Right now I feel like love is a joke. It's not true and all I see his heart ache. The good ones are already taken and I feel like it's to late for me. I don't know but love is not in my vocabulary right now. I have lost it as I found out the truth with love. it hurts but I keep silent as I watch people go by and let them live there life.
For me to not end up like them, I have learn to just move on. Find happiness somewhere else. The lord is trying to protect me and give me clues and I need to start following them.
I'm not perfect nor can I get things right but I know in my heart I should listen. That's what I'm going to do.
the guys should chase me not me chase the guys,
I have no idea who the lucky person is but they will come along. Or maybe they are right in front of me. Doubt it but I have to just wait.
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