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Being a single mom can be a struggle but I did a little shop with me as I got a few itmes at 2 stores but I was upset at BigLots as I had to wait for a lady that was signing up for a card. I was like really!!! I have things to do..gash I'm a mom!!!

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SingleMoM4: Single mom wonders

SingleMoM4: Single mom wonders: I wonder, why get married when youbare not happy or you don't trust the person you with as they have so much bullshit lurking around tha...

Single mom wonders

I wonder, why get married when youbare not happy or you don't trust the person you with as they have so much bullshit lurking around that you forgave. I'm just trying to figure this out

 Why get married to someone that will cheat on you, lie to you behind your back and you just take the shit.

   A person says because you love them. But why sacrifice so much and that person can not do the same?

I am debating about love. What is the true meaning of love? I dig real deep inside me and I smile as I can somewhat see it, feel it and desire it but it only comes to some of us as it is rare. 

  I'm not talking about "Oh he cheated just one time, it's okay" or " I love her but I want to have a little fun"..."I rather spend money on myself then her".... "I don't want to work, I will let her do all the money making"

    All of that and more is not love. True love is actually someone there to the end. It's rare in this world. People grow apart. People realize who they are and they even want more. Desire more and of course the kids can bring you together or break you. 

  Just everything together is just crazy. So I wonder if I will find the love of my life. I wonder if I am willing to wait or be patient. 

  These day in age I wonder if I even want to look. So Instead I am making myself a list of things I want in a men. I will probably Vlogs about it or just keep it between us. So far, I am willing to just see what happens. 

  Right now I feel like love is a joke. It's not true and all I see his heart ache. The good ones are already taken and I feel like it's to late for me. I don't know but love is not in my vocabulary right now. I have lost it as I found out the truth with love. it hurts but I keep silent as I watch people go by and let them live there life. 

   For me to not end up like them, I have learn to just move on. Find happiness somewhere else. The lord is trying to protect me and give me clues and I need to start following them. 

 I'm not perfect nor can I get things right but I know in my heart I should listen. That's what I'm going to do.

   the guys should chase me not me chase the guys, 

I have no idea who the lucky person is but they will come along. Or maybe they are right in front of me. Doubt it but I have to just wait.

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SingleMoM4: Early in the morning?!#love

SingleMoM4: Early in the morning?!#love: Being a mom is hard but being a single one is even more harder. I trusted my kids father to be here for me and actually be with me. I guess ...

Early in the morning?!#love

Being a mom is hard but being a single one is even more harder. I trusted my kids father to be here for me and actually be with me. I guess old things die. I can not understand why he doesn't tell me who he hangs out with but I know because I would leave. Not waste my time. During this covic-19 I'm going to leave silently. I'm going to stop calling and when he realize I stop calling I'm going to not pick up.

  All I got from him was pain and stress. No responsibility. 

  So ladies if you know your kids father is not right, just run. Keep yourself busy. Trust me I woke up in the middle of the night wanting to call him but I didn't. That was the first step I took at 4am in the morning with my toddler. She wants chicken nuggets as she miss dinner. She drunk my breastmilk but she was done with that. No other choice but to get up and feed my baby. That is what a mom would do. 

   As I sip on my coffee and my daughter eats her chicken nuggets I smile as I know soon I will have to wake up my other 3 kids to get ready for there dental appointment. My dad will be taking my car to the gas station to get me gas in my tire. He usually get free air so I'm like yeah I need that. 

   So today I'm going to smile more. I took my first step by not calling which is great but I hope I can keep it up. Will keep you posted with that. 

    I'm going to enjoy the rest of my coffee, watch the news and watch my baby finish her chicken nuggets.

Sincerely

😊

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