Exhausted...a mother's life

It's late and I'm tired. I'm breastfeeding as I try to keep my eyes open which by the way I still need to take out my contacts.
  It's Tuesday about to be Wednesday in a 30mins I believe and im still exhausted from work..kids...cooking...and HW that all I want is ME TIME!!! That's what I get at work...Me time where I social with adults where I have no clue what I'm talking about nor them. I'm best at putting on a smile and a fake laugh just to make it seem like I really care but most of the time I don't.

  Being a parent is a tuff job as you bascially have to juggle kids and your life
  I thought having a extra kid shouldn't be to bad. I did the deed I own up to it. Well its starting to get to me
 I feel like I'm feeling as a mother.  I have like 3 different grade school kids in my house. One have to learn to read and shapes to the other advance in math but needs some help with expressing herself on paper and of course one that has no clue ( sometimes) and doesn't want to put in the work but still want to get a A...it doesn't work like that and it's that's age where you have to drift off but not to far. I'm tired that I have to make a schedule for my kids so everyone will learn and have sometime with me with the baby since she is here.
   I'm feeling the pressure now but I some how put on a smile
 I need to keep motivating myself because I know I can do more. Exhausted and tired I'm praying I won't over sleep :/


A mother's life

First step

The first thing you need to know is never give up on things when you are a single parent.  Even if it seems impossible you can do it. Yes you will have to sacrifice your time and be responsible but at the end it will be worth it. I can't tell you how hard I was trying to find a new JOB but Yah had another plan for me. With a nice raise and only being with the company almost 2 years and working my way up I thought I will just pass on I'm still there. It sucks some days but what if I can really do this or start something to where I can do what I really love?
  Who really knows but I stayed positive when shit got worse and I thought my hard work was not paying off but it REALLY DID!!!
  Whatever you are doing never give up. Even if it's a small business or hobby you are doing on the side still work and make sure you don't forget about your dream. One day you will own that franchise or your own.




mmmm....one day I will own my own....I will follow where he wants me to go (Yah)

things change

Motherhood can be challenging sometimes but it's a amazing thing to see how your body change for those 9 months but pushing it out is a different thing.

  Even raising a child on your own or multiple can be a challenge. It will test a relationship to even test YOU!!! 

  Most importantly having a great support system matters A LOT!!!! I have been bless to have awsome family behind me. Today at school as I know other parents know I'm a single mother trying to figure out how I do it or even another sngle mother plus one on the way I think as it looks like she is but I'm not going to say anything until I see it grows more.

  Back to my point...even if you are a single parent to a perfect relationship with kids. Take time to give each other a break so you won't go crazy and start pointing fingers.

  Enjoy every moment : )

A few night words

The night is finally here as the downstairs is quiet to the upstairs as well. The kids are quietly sleeping as I'm so HAPPY but all I'm missing is wine:(

  That's okay as I drunk ginger beer ( no alcohol) it still hit the spot. with my stomach full there is still no time to play as I have to help my son finish his paper for his report( Grandma helping) and color. I better get to bed as motherhood is a none ending story. I better enjoy my 5 hours of sleep or less. ..Good night and more to come about motherhood 

Semi sleepless

When your mind is on something and you try to sleep..well you will probably get about 2 hours of sleep and be ready to go. That's how I feel right at this moment. I'm already thinking about when I'm going to pump before I go to work and make sure I have enough time since it's going to be super windy outside. Getting kids lunch done to cleaning the bathroom at 4am or after work?  To top everything off Baby wakes up as I try to pump (got it done) To my youngest wakes up saying his stomach hurt. Of course I'm unsure when he went poop so we have to take some prunes. We shall see what happens but he said his stomach feel better. Of course he doesn't poop every day or every other day and he drinks water!!!  Sorry let's stop talking about poop.

  So you see in this week I'm trying to get all my important things done plus kids school, work,entertaining kids, homework that I can barely wrap my mind around everything.

  I hope my family past this expection for the house or we be looking for somewhere else to stay.  Yes, I'm stress!!!!



Ahhhh Motherhood

breast pumping

Motherhood is filled with different obstacles which I do have one AGAIN!!!
  Breastfeeding is way easier if you can be with the baby 24/7 or away just for 2 days for a couple of hours (4hours)
  Trying to pump and make time for my other kids and eating right seems to be a failed task for me.
  Getting a letter in the mail about Jury duty definitely bump my day but I can get out of it temporary as I will be able to finish breastfeeding my daughter all the way she is 1 and wing her off or just give her both.
 As my note just say I will be excused for that day I believe I have to put in a date I will be available again to go ahead and do it.
   Of course in my head how can I really be ready to go to jury duty as a single mom and making sure someone will be able to pick up my kids. I will find away. I even have to read my not the doctor gave me. I just think they put just my day I go.
  Ahh I'm just stressing and I need to relax a bit. I just need to fill out the form n send it in and put a month when I am available.

  Life as a mom is so crazy that some days...well a lot of days you don't get to eat a balance meal. Maybe that's just me but its about to be 1am and I sure need to get up and try pumping 3 more oz of milk out.


  Breast pumping I tell you.. exhausting

On a Sabbath it went like this....

My oldest daughter loves apples. If I would let her she will eat the whole bag of apples in a day. What mom could say no to tour kid wanting to eat a apple for breakfast? I sure can't as she is on her second one. 

  I know you are probably wondering why I just didn't make breakfast....well u celebrate the Sabbath to where we don't cook but relax. Food should be done before Friday before 6pm. I field in away with making breakfast but there is always cereal. 

   Telling my 7 month year old no one it comes to putting thongs in her month like toys( brothers toys) She smiles and laugh at me. She probably saying Mommy your funny...haha No what is that word.

   Did I mention she is crawling and want to get in everything and reach at things so she can stand. Yes she is supper busy. This morning is going great buy I need Coffee!!## Very soon I will get and a nice nap I won't get until later I think : /.

   Hope you enjoy the read so far as I have to get back to my baby and my other kids are great as one is listening to Mr. Hebrew1 lesson on revelation on YouTube (check he is getting some word in)

  as my other son looking at the Croods on Netflix and entertaining the baby Andy daughter ran up stairs to her room with her apple probably watching one of her girly shows....

my life...

 

My intro to my new blog : )

Hello welcome to my blog. Here I will talk about what moms always wondered about or just wonder if anyone esle has done it, seen it or even experience it. I will get truthful as I can with out crying or laughing. I love my four kids but sadly I am a single mother.  Sometimes things don't go as plan and all my children is by the same men but now when I think about it...WHY WHAT WAS I THINKING!!!!!
  Please enjoy the read of my blogs because raising children are not easy especially by yourself. Comment as you wish and enjoy.