At this point I have no idea what to say or think. I am working but today I wanted to quit. Today I wanted to through in the towel and say F you. Walking out would have been amazing. Instead I stuck it out and finish what I could. The person that is training sucks as I know myself I was not ready to get behind the desk and multi task everything. It was to much to take in. It was overload to where I started to double guess everything about me. I thought I was slow at learning to maybe I am not cut out to do this job.
The a light ball went off in my head after I sat in my car waiting for my mom. I was train to do back office only 3 days when I had no choice to just do it on my 4th day. I got it down but I ask question real fast but the person I was asking was kind of helpful but not really. I got it down good enough to where the next week came and I started to learn the front office. I got some of it down but not the billing and putting this here and there. I was still learning to check peoples insurance. Now on my 3week of work, I didn't expect to go in. Actually take over the front office. I was okay waiting until Friday. I was not ready yet but I still tried. Tell you the truth, I disliked it so much that I wanted to leave.
The person that should have been training me left me a couple of times and then act like I should know what I was doing. I felt like a failure. Then I learn to day is I was not. I learn the back office in 3 days. Did it by myself on the 4th and I could have ran out but I didn't. Seeing how far and how much I learn, I was doing great. Now, I am going to do something for me once. I am willing to go the extra mile. Find another job that is right for me as I go back to school. Yup, that is right. I am going back to school.
I shall have the funds and I need to learn something I will enjoy and not put my family in so much danger when it comes to covic-19. I did learn a lot from this job. I have learn I might not be able to pick up everything fast but I can do the job. I will be quitting soon as I feel the space in the office is to small, and I want a space with more open to where I don't be bumping into my coworkers. It's better to know now then later. Wish my luck on my journey as I will be finding another job and going back to school very soon.
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