How do it do it? I have no idea. There is no easy way to tell someone you are a single parent with four kids living with your parents.
Trust me this is not how anyone plans out life nor did I. I guess I wanted to believe in someone that was un capable of believing in themselves that they fell under down a huge hole.
I ask my self some days as I work 4 days straight and get kids ready in the morning how do I handle of the craziness in the morning.
Work is a long ass day that I can't wait to go home to see my babies. When I do, I make sure I cook a meal as fast as I can to put on a smile and ask every kid how there day was to Homework and of course reading. Attend to Baby Z as she is growing and learning as well.
Once everyone is sleep all I want to do is sleep as I should probably take a bath and just soak my body in the water as my feet hurt from another long day of work.
I wish I can say I love my job and I can't wait to go back the next day or just like my job. All I can say is I'm just not passionate of what I do.
I loved that I learned how to be a designer and I can take that with me but my view is different then others and maybe it just might work or not.
Going back to school might have to wait as I'm going to see how much is one class to myself saving up for a new car. Unsure if I can do it but lets try. If I get another job and I can afford daycare for at least 2 days then I might be okay and get a car sooner and keep it moving.
Life seems different for me these days and some how I want to be able to just stay focus.
My phone interview I probably mess up on but it's all up to the mighty Yah.
I know there is something out there for me that pays well and willing to work with my crazy schedule plus I want to enjoy life.
I'm going to call it a night as the wind calm down and the rain is on it's way for a hour. I'm sure I will fall asleep and say my prayers tonight.
A Moms Life
